hold me Jesus cause i need words.....

i need words by david crowder I need words as wide as sky I need language wide as this longing inside And I need a voice bigger than mine And I need a song to sing You that I've yet to find I need You, oh I need You I need You, oh I need You To be here now To be here now To hear me now To hear me now well, in case you did not hear yet i did not get the job in texas and there is so much that i could say regarding that. but usually at times like this that there are songs that carry me to a place with God where i can escape and be in His presence as He cradles me in his arms. the song i quoted above has doen that for me today. i got the call from the church, then had to go to our kids open house at their school, and then i had coffee with one of the elders at the church i previously worked at. as i drove there i played that song over and over again. it helps, but i do not know where i am gonna go from here. this is hard and it makes me wonder if this is what i am even supposed to do. maybe i am just supposed to be a braoch maker for the rest of my life. i don't think it is true but it just how i feel right now. in case you did not know, rejection SUCKS!!!!! i was prepared for it and even had a feeling that i wouldn't get it, but it still makes it hard. nothing can prepare you for it. for now there is another song that i am gonna escape with and it is by one of my favorite christian artists, rich mullins, and it was the song that carried me through my grandmothers death over 10 years ago. hold me Jesus by rich mullins Well, sometimes my life Just don't make sense at all When the mountains look so big And my faith just seems so small So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf You have been King of my glory Won't You be my Prince of Peace And I wake up in the night and feel the dark It's so hot inside my soul I swear there must be blisters on my heart So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf You have been King of my glory Won't You be my Prince of Peace Surrender don't come natural to me I'd rather fight You for something I don't really want Than to take what You give that I need And I've beat my head against so many walls Now I'm falling down, I'm falling on my knees And this Salvation Army band Is playing this hymn And Your grace rings out so deep It makes my resistance seem so thin So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf You have been King of my glory Won't You be my Prince of Peace You have been King of my glory Won't You be my Prince of Peace